Husband
I love and miss you more every day. Its been getting harder to cope with each passing day. I fear the worst for myself at times but I am remaining strong holding onto your memory as each day passes. Its been a year already I cant believe it. Not much has happened since a year ago. I didn't celebrate your birthday as I had planned. I just couldn't do it. I did stop drinking and I recently started my brand back up. Not sure ill ever finish it but I continue to work on it each day. Im in the mainland now and I really hate it here. people are so rude and Aloha is not appreciated. Miss the warm weather. They tell me summers here are nice but ive yet to believe that. Its just been cold and rainy and the days seem to linger on forever. Probably due to the fact I find myself hiding every chance I get because I start randomly crying. I stayed with my sisters family over the holiday and that was kind of nice. We use to be so close so it was good to become close again. Anyways Im sorry I rambled on and im sure we will talk again. I just needed to write you a message on your tribute wall. Not a day passes that I dont think about Kalihi and our housing. Miss you more than ever. I love you my queen. Watch over Ekahi.Â